Another year on pause.
Another year of limbo, in between, almost there but not quite yet.
This is the first fall I’m not returning to school. In may I completed my masters degree, instead of it ending with an “!” it ended with a “. . .” now what?
Now I have a confession, life isn’t going the way I had it planned.
This was supposed to be the year that I got into my dream MFA program, the one that would give me the credentials and experience needed to eventually become a professor. The program was full and I need apply again, I need to wait until next year. This was the year I could have gotten a full time job as an art teacher. I came in second, instead, I will be a substitute teacher again.
In a lot of ways I feel like I am caught in the middle of “. . .” waiting for the next big thing to happen.
This is another year on pause because it’s a waiting period. Pause is a time for new beginnings.
The beautiful thing about pause is that it gives you time that may not have been afforded before. Imagine what you could do with a year that suddenly (unexpectedly) becomes empty. Imagine what an artist can do with a blank canvas. While in the midst of this “wait a little longer” I am going to hush my incessantly worrying mind and harness opportunity. There is a “resume” button on the horizon.
This year, every day I will post a new photograph. Note that I said “post” not “shoot.” In a typical 365 a photographer would shoot and post a new photo every day. For the sake of continuing to create series, I will set up 2-4 shoots a week and post daily from them to tell stories immersed in emotion and brimming with fantasy.
This time next year I hope to look back at my “pause” year and see a concentration of growth and creativity. Who knows, this time next year maybe I’ll be starting on that MFA degree… or maybe I will be somewhere unforeseeable and adventuresome.
So here we go. Time to press “resume” and move forward into this year with expectancy.
Have you ever faced a (Pause) in your life?
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